Fighting Doubt

And yet, lately these thoughts have returned. They’re lingering in my mind, as hard as I try to push them away. They just return, slowly, like the tide that comes and goes everyday. I think the stress combined with small frustrations building up brought these negative thoughts on. Adding to this is the uncertainty of the transition of a new, more advanced position at my employer requiring more time, effort, and accountability. And let’s not forget, the summer semester, the 2nd semester of my MBA program overall, is less than two weeks away and is looming in the distance.

I think at this point the pressure is starting to get to me. I need to crush these seeds of doubt. Positive thinking must prevail over negative emotions. This is where my pastor’s words come in: “You must renew your mind.” Yeah, easier said than done, right? It’s extremely difficult to do this when your feelings aren’t matching up. However, I’ve been through times of pressure before, so I know that this is just a part of the process of changing my mind to think positively. And if I get in too far over my head, I have the Big Man Upstairs to give me a boost.

You know, sometimes you need to remind yourself of these things. I really needed to see my mental, emotional, and spiritual weapons literally written down and displayed in front of me, to truly release, relax, and refocus. Even as I type this post I feel the motivation coming back to me. I have to remember that I have a purpose in all of this and that is to become “blessed to be a there blessing”. So with that in mind, I HAVE to overcome these negative emotions. There is no other option. To become successful, I know that I will have to have these victories under my belt.

Doubt is NOT going to keep me from my success-bound destiny.